When it rains, it pours
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I took the above photo on Wednesday. I was coming back from an interview, and it rained. I’m not sure why I was so surprised, considering that a storm had been tipped for the week. But unfortunately, I was wearing a fluffy coat, a dress, a pair of tights with a hole in that I’d bought two hours ago (cheers Primark), and heeled boots. So when it chucked it down for the duration of my walk back, I was a soggy, mascara all over, kind of mess.
I’ve found this term of university to be a similar thing. Third year was going to be, of course, but I don’t think I was quite prepared for how difficult it was going to be to juggle everything. There are so many new elements to this year of university, including shorthand, which have taken me time to get my head around. Combining that with running a whole magazine and doing enough part-time work hours so I can survive, it has been a very tenuous act of trying to balance everything.
There’s this new trend of saying ‘self-care’. At first, I thought it was a way of just excusing buying OTT stuff – and sometimes it is – but then I actually realised it is just taking the time to breathe, calming down, and sorting yourself out. When everything is so busy in life, especially this time of year, it can be hard to take a step back. You feel guilty if you do something else that’s not working, and you end up just never being able to switch off because there’s always something to worry about.
But it’s okay to take the evening to chill, and do whatever will get you back in your head. Whether it’s a drink out with your mates, or a choccie biccie and a bad Netflix film, it’s okay just to take the time out to breathe. The work will still be there, and you’ll still be there to do it. But if you’re not feeling like yourself, chances are you’re not going to do the best work. A clearer perspective can sort out that problem you think is unsolvable.
There’s a lyric by a band called Idlewild (I do mention them a lot) that goes: “I’m not really sure of all this pressure; I’m never gonna lose any of my old letters.” I often have this go round in my head, as to me it’s saying that even though things are busy and difficult, it’s still important to keep in touch with those who matter to you. I had an incident happen the other day where I was being followed, and I rang my family for the first time in ages. It reminded me that actually, it is important to not let work push you away from those you love.
So, when it rains, it pours. All the pressure comes on at once. But it’s okay, because you will be able to walk through it, no matter how drenched you get. And at the end of it all? There will be someone waiting for you, with a cup of tea in hand, ready to warm you back up again.